I still remember very clearly everything that you told me last night. Those words made me realize my mistakes. At some point I almost cried because I felt that you really love me with everything that you have, but before that I wanted to cry because it hurts. I just kept telling myself to not cry..
I cry like a baby when we fight. Only when we fight. It's so difficult to not cry. You always say things that hurt the most, things that I will remember for a long, long, time. I cry because it hurts so bad and because I care for you more than anything else in the world. I know that sometimes I can be a really bad girlfriend but I really am trying my best.
When you told me, "Whenever I see you, my heart softens." I could feel that you meant it. And yes, no matter what we fight about and how serious that issue might be, once I see you.. Everything changes. It is always because of the way you fake a sad look and then run forward to hug me. It never fails to make every ounce of anger/disappointment/fear/insecurity in me disappear.
Most of the time it's super duper cute when you behave like a kid, other times it is SO annoying! But I love you anyway. I've said this before and I'll say it again, I have never loved anyone like I love you. I never knew I can love like that. I never knew how a total stranger, ten months back, can mean so much to me now.
People say, "Love will find you when you stop looking." It is true. I know because love found me when I completely gave up. Right now, I have the best and the only person for me. People may think that I am bold for saying something like that when we've only been together for slightly more than eight months but every passing day shows me that this is it, you are the one and there is no one else better for me.
The rest of my life has begun 254 days ago..
And it began with you. Without a doubt.
